I made it home.
Landing at Paris Charles de Gaulle, I rejoiced. First off, everything was so clean and shiny in that airport (terminal two, mind you) that I felt I could lick the floors. And the lines we waited in? They had ropes defining them, and people actually formed a single file line accordingly. And the shuttle bus? Brand spanking new. The express train? IT WAS AN ACTUAL EXPRESS TRAIN, appropriately labelled as such on the train information boards.
These are the things I never appreciated before this hellish trip of mine. I never thought about how clean things are, how smoothly trains/cars/buses glide along the tracks/streets, how INCREDIBLY AWESOME it is to have fixed fares and proper labels for everything.
I arrived in Paris at 5.30 on Sunday morning. I passed through passport control in just under five minutes, and by the time I was on the other side, my baggage was already circling along the conveyor belt. I picked it up, made use of a nearby (clean!) toilet, and then picked up the shuttle. It showed up after three minutes wait (on time! on time!) and I bought a (fixed price!) ticket into the city. Approaching the train platform, I saw that the next train was only minutes from departure and I quickly hopped abord. I settled in, and the train departed (on time!).
The whole experience was so fluid and easy that I felt like telling everybody on the train, "Do you see how well this whole thing is working? Did you notice how easy it has been???"
I refrained from doing so, though.
By the time I got to my station, it was daylight and Paris was slowly waking up. I strapped on my backpack and stepped outside, happy to notice that nobody was on the street as I began to giggle with glee. My steps became lighter and I set off in a fucked-up semi-skip down the sidewalk -- difficult to do with a backpack on, I'll tell you that much. But, damn, it felt good to be back.
I have spent the last 20+ hours snuggling with The Boy and telling my horror stories to those who asked the inevitable "How was India????" question. Today, I took care of some administrative tasks and walked around much of the city. I was so glad to be here, I was almost dizzy with happiness. At one point, I turned to some friends and said, "Is everybody still on vacation? I feel like Paris is so sleepy..."
They looked at me strangely, and said that they thought things were more or less back to normal. And I realized that it's just that I have been living in such chaos for the last month that everything here feels so nice and easy and gentle. Today, I think I was more relaxed than I have been in a long, long time -- even before I ever left. I guess going away and going through such insanity made me realize that my life here isn't really all that difficult. I'll do my best to retain that feeling for as long as possible. It's an amazing way to live, appreciating the simplicity of everyday tasks with such enthusiasm.
I am currently feeling good but am having some serious eye problems as a result of the sandstorm on the train to Delhi. My vision still has not been completely restored, and I am getting a little worried about it, as I am sort of half-blind right now. I am calling the optometrist tomorrow to see if my eyes may be a little infected.
The whole blindness issue caused me quite a scene at the FNAC today, where I was berated by a worker for not reading the signs indicating where I could buy a certain product. I had told him on two occasions that I had vision problems and could not make out any of the words on their signs or product labels, and that he would need to describe to me in words what the packaging looked like and where I could find it. I ended up finding the wrong product and he made me feel like a dumbass for not being able to read the labels ("I already told you it needs to say SD! SD!"). Hopefully he felt shitty when I said, "Look, I've told you twice that I am almost blind, so I was going on what you described to me. Sorry for the mistake." His response, "Yeah, well... whatever." The whole thing made me feel for anybody who is handicapped in a way that isn't immediately obvious to others. It was as if he didn't really believe me.
In the end, I was able to buy the product that I was looking for, which has thus allowed me to upload some pictures to my computer. I am still working on them, but I thought I would share a first one straight away:
During our 20+ hour train ride from the desert to Delhi, there had been a raging sandstorm. The windows on the train could not shut, and I ended up getting tons of sand in my eyes. My hands were filthy and I did not have any glasses, and needed to remain as attentive as possible during the night on the train. There was no way I could take out my contacts, and the sand and the wind, coupled with too many hours of dirty contact time ended up destroying my eyes. Upon our return in Delhi, I was almost completely blind (more so than now) but could not close my eyes because they burned too much. Immediately after arriving in the hotel, I pulled out my contacts and sat for 15 minutes with a wet washcloth over my face, practicing deep breathing techniques while trying to work my way through the pain. Eventually, my eyes stopped tearing so much and I was able to snag a photo -- my face is shiny from the tears and the washcloth. Here's what I looked like at that moment.
I think that pretty much describes how I felt for the last 10 days of our trip. And that was before we ever even called the doctor.
More photos to come...