March 2009 Archives

1) He can sing Twinkle Twinkle

and

2) He loves his Mimi and Baba

Twinkle Twinkle from odessa on Vimeo.

So. About that last post. Apparently that freaked some people right the fuck out. However, I am not going to discuss the issues here. Just know that I am fine and doing great.

Also, I am overwhelmed by the awesomeness of my friends. I know I have done something right in my life when I have so many amazing people to lean on. It's humbling to know people care. I love all of you so much.

For what it's worth, things are so, so, so much better than they were just one week ago. Yet another thing I can't really get into here. But things are good. Fantastique.

Doing somewhat better now, although still wrestling with feelings of anger, disappointment and shame. And bitterness. That will probably last a lifetime.

Thank you to my close friends and family, who stepped up their game and listened. Thank you to the unexpecteds, who surprised me with your understanding and compassion. And thanks especially to Mateo, for being cute and clueless. You'll get it one day, and I don't think you'll be so carefree, then. I just want to protect you and give you the most happiness I can. I am sorry I can't shield you from everything.

I can not believe this shit. Are you fucking kidding me?

So I upgraded the site forever ago and it still looks like ass - it's been bugging me that I can't be bothered to fix it. It has come to my attention - via a faithful reader - that my RSS feed has changed in the process, or that for some reason it isn't working.. Apologies to you all. I hope I didn't lose my RSS-feed-reading friends forever.

Today was a shitty day and I am not afraid to acknowledge that. There are ups and downs in life, and at least this is the weekend. Good Lord, though, I hate feeling like an idiot. This is the first time in awhile where I have had just a deep, deep feeling of uneasiness, and I suppose it's good for me to remember how that feels. A reality check of sorts. "Don't get too comfortable, Lady!" I guess is the overall message, there.

I got pretty glum this evening, I will say. It got me thinking back on my previous post, and I'm trying to appreciate the range of feelings for whatever they are worth.

As an aside, I am so glad ANTM is back on. Mindless dribble is the best sometimes.