Today was my last full day of being "in charge." So here's what I've realized about myself in the last three weeks: I like power. I like being considered the chief. I like when people think I'm actually capable of making important decisions.
None of this should be seen as a haughty, dangerous thing. I am saying this as a genuine, positive realization. I need a job where people turn to me; it's what pushes me to work hard. It energizes me, but I don't think I abuse the power. Hopefully my co-workers would agree. I don't feel like my authority high extends to others; I have simply noticed that my own work is far better when I am put in the head honcho position.
I have mixed feelings about Vegas' return. I'm excited to see him, I've missed him a sort of freakish amount over the last weeks considering how recently we've become close. I'm also looking forward to the relief of not working so much. However, I'm a little concerned that I am going to have a hard time going back to my previous position in the store. I know he's the boss, and I've known it all along - even in his absence. But still. Even just "playing boss" for a month sorta makes you feel like you are one, and I don't know how much of my inner boss is going to wince when someone else starts telling me what to do.
I'm sure it will be fine. But honestly? I feel that, along with Kathypath, we've done a pretty impressive job of running the show. In fact, numerous people have commented on improvements since Vegas' departure (particularly when it comes to cleanliness and/or organization matters). So it will be sorta weird when Vegas starts prioritizing and putting certain things fifth when I feel they should be third. Or first when I think they should be twelfth. Or whatever. It's his store, and we differ (a fair amount) in how we run things. So that might be tough. Luckily, I'll only have a week of working to re-adjust, and then I'm off to the States for a bit. A break will probably do me some good, too.
Really, though. This whole experience has been great. I am going to have to thank Vegas for the opportunity. Profusely.
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